As a child it was always chaos. Drunk mother, who died in our motor home
by driving over a cliff in it. I suppose I am upset because its close
to the time she passed away that has me thinking so much. What I find
odd is my wife is sick, she is too young to be as sick as she is.
Medical sucks, docs only care about the money. "here take this pill and
all will be fine". Yeah, that pill costs 700 a month! It is so hard to
see someone you love suffer and not be able to do anything to help her. I
bought our motor home with the hopes that getting her out and seeing
nature would give her joy, and some peace in her beautiful heart. I am
so angry right now, she has had noting but trouble since her teen yrs.
Living on the streets, and more. I just want to bring her some sort of
peace of mind, contentment, and more. All I see is hell, costs always
rising and no chance to do anything because of it. We created our
"bucket" list. Mine was to simply see her happy. But all the days I
watch the news I see nothing but dismay, pain and suffering. So my
bucket list is this, to simply make her laugh, I mean REALLY laugh! And
to smile and to see the beauty that God has blessed us with. I will do
what I have too to make that happen. She deserves it, and so so much
more. She did not ask for the things to happen to her as they have.
I as her husband will do the best I can to make the last her best. I
love her more then life it self, no her? no me. I just have got to get
things done, and see her smile most of all. That is what keeps me
going. The idea and hope to see her as I did just a few short yrs ago.